I'm amazed by the common experience I've seen since browsing gay Mormon blogs. I particularly liked this story (regards to GayMormon, from whose blog sidebar I stole this link). I could have practically written this story except that I'm not that good of a writer and the names don't quite match my life. If you have a look, The first and fourth articles are by the same guy and I liked them better than the other two.
I've seen the angst described much better than I could myself. The hopes for a future with a wife, and the hopes for an unknown future that may not include a wife. I've seen the temptation described similar to those I've faced myself. There are those who believe that being gay and being a part of the church are not mutually exclusive, those who think it abundantly clear that they are indeed impossible to combine, and those who have left the church to find their peace. And many kind, supportive, and understanding comments throughout several blogs from one who is a "recovering Mormon" and one who has little to do with the church but is genuinely concerned with gay men struggling with their sexuality.
How in this maelstrom of thought, anguish, and faith can all these different conclusions have come about? Is consensus possible, or desirable? Should I indulge my desire to win people to my own way of thinking or just sit back and enjoy the diversity? If I seek to influence others am I motivated by my own smug pride or a genuine belief that I might help them?
I think most of all I like the idea of fellowship. Perhaps even in a one-sided way in which I have a window into someone else's soul, but they don't know (or don't care) that I'm there. Thanks to all whose blogs I did or didn't mention who have strengthened, informed, and challenged me.